Time to heal

How can I think about the future

When the present is so heavy

All I listen to is white noise

And all I hear is the screaming

I might look distant

But I am trying to find myself in me

The hole that is never filled

Is not disappearing

Trying to love

But is so hard

Trying to trust

But I just can’t

Trying to live

But I rather leave

This time looks so slow

That I cannot find the time

To think about when

I was a part

It feels like there is no end

But better be safe than in danger

That is why I drown in my own empty glass

The tears I dropped are now dried

And I know that I am not enough

For this task

Trying to love

But is so hard

Trying to trust

But I just can’t

Trying to live

But I rather leave

This so broken

I just want the past

 

I wrote this a few weeks ago. It might seem the end, but there is always us to have hope.